Sunday, October 4, 2009
Rio Grande Scenic Railroad
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Give Me A Break!!
Friday, July 31, 2009
Tom’s older sister, Peggy, had to have emergency surgery again today. She constantly seems to build up scar tissue and plugs her up. I think this is the 4th surgery she has had because of this problem, just in the last 5-6 years. Always before, we have been with her but this came on her so fast, we just waited it out here. Our daughters were there as was Tom’s younger sister. She scares me, last surgery we came so close to losing her. About 2 days after surgery, she crashed and ended up on a ventilator in ICU for about 2 months. Her doctor said he had never had anyone so critical pull through. But because of all this, they developed a real good relationship, and he really does care about her as a person. And this time she had signed a “no ventilator” thing – which we don’t agree with! She has very weak lungs, and that is what shows problems first - usually. But she almost always has complications following surgery so hope this time will be different.
We are looking forward to going home for a bit this coming week, if only for 3 days – it will be good to see everyone. That is the worst part, not being close to our family.
Until Next Time……
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
July (Again)
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Fathers Day 2009
To my daddy on Fathers Day,
You have been gone from this life for so many years, but it only seems like such a short time ago you were here. Has it really been 22 years since you were called home? And your wife has been with you almost 16 years.
I miss you, there are times when I feel you ever so close, and the occasional dreams. I wish I could have those dreams far more often, because they are so very real.
Rather than go into all the things I wish could have been, I like to focus on the things that were and are. You left behind quite a family, for only having one boy and one girl. You have 8 grandchildren, 17 great-grandchildren and five step great great grandchildren. Children were the light of your life, you said you had hoped you lived long enough to have great grandchildren and you did. You were able to welcome quite a few of them here! You had already gone on when you brought back your great-grandson, Chris. I took a lot of comfort knowing you were there to take care of him and love him.
I so appreciate your teaching me the values of life, how you were the richest man on earth because you had your wonderful wife, and two kids. And you really meant it when you said it. You know dad, I don’t think there are many on this earth today that “really” feel that way. So many today would trade most anything for fame and fortune. I found out the meaning of patience and long suffering from you. You had such an extreme case of arthritis in your body. Seldom did you complain – most of your complaints were due to the restrictions it put on you. You couldn’t even hold a fork to feed yourself, you fashioned a special one just for that purpose. I read in your journal now how you had so many days that you couldn’t get out and around until afternoon because of the soreness of the joints. Odd, I don’t remember that.
How I loved sitting on your lap, in the rocking chair, by that big radio, listening to Fibber McGee and Molly – or to the Friday Night Fights I think it was! And the electric storms that would come through at night and you gathering up your family and making us all go out to the car to wait it out! Wonder if that was because of the couple times we had a “lightening ball” go through the kitchen window and explode in the living room? Or maybe because you found out that lightening could and did – strike in the same place twice?!! Or was it because of the time the lightening kicked my brother in the butt and threw him off the front porch leaving him dazed?! As a young child, I just took it all in stride I guess. Not knowing that these things were not normal??! I have often wondered if that ground there had a special attraction to lightening…
I love the fact that you loved farming, that you loved the soil, and tending and taking care of the earth. You took such pride in keeping nature as it should be. You were way before your time! You probably went broke because you didn’t want to impact the earth too much, which was opposite of the thinking of that time. Now I go over to the valley and stand in amazement at the way farming is today. You would not have been at all happy with the methods of today and certainly not all the circle irrigation!
I appreciate your taking care of my mother for all those years. I never dreamed how hard it must have been at times. You know she had some type of chemical imbalance, which I was never able to find anyone who could help her. I appreciate that you loved her, adored her, and would have done most anything for her. I appreciate that you sacrificed so much for her and for me. Through the worst of times, your NOT doing all you could was not even a consideration. I remember asking you once if you ever went through a “mid-life crisis” as so many men seem to do today. You said you felt that was all a bunch of rubbish. You said you thought the men today just have too much time on their hands to worry about themselves and was nothing more than selfishness.
I appreciate that even at the age of 41, you wanted to adopt a child and again at the age of 45. I know if you would have been in your 20’s, I would have had you many more years, but I also know that wasn’t the plan. In January of 1949, one of your neighbors had to make a trip to Denver and asked if you, your wife and your son would like to go along. You did, and while up there stopped by the Home for Dependent Children to see how far down on the list you were. When you stopped in, you then found out that as of that day, there was a girl you could take home with you if you wanted! This baby had just returned from Children’s Hospital because of “failure to thrive” problems. This must have been the early part of January, because my biological mother signed away her rights on YOUR birthday, Jan.7th! You know you always encouraged us to try to find our biological mothers, you always wanted to tell them thank you. You know I found mine, and was able to relay that message to her from you! Now as time goes on, she also has passed and I have tried to repay her by having her work done in the temple of our Lord. She wanted that. She asked me one time why I had contact with her, she had nothing to give me – I told her she had already given me the greatest gift one person could give another. She looked at me and said what?? I said to her “Life”. I don’t think she really understood that!! Perhaps now she does.
I am so thankful that back in 1955 and 1956, you listened to Elder and Sister Chard from Utah. I thank you for building your testimony of the Lords Gospel, of living his gospel. I thank you for that example for so many. I thank you for being patient with me, I don’t understand how you could have been so patient, but I thank you! I always knew the gospel meant a lot to me, but not until I actually faced death and stepped over that threshold did I really understand what it’s all for. I thank you for all the work you continue to do – I know you are very busy where you are now. I hope when my time comes to meet you, you can take a few days off to spend just with me!!
So daddy, as this year passes, I still miss you as much now as ever. I miss your wisdom and your stead-fastness. I miss your chewing on whole cloves before church every Sunday!! I miss cutting your hair every month or so. I miss our quiet times on those special Saturday mornings! You and I, before my family woke up and you, before my mom woke up! You would sneak out of the house and come over to my house where we would sit and talk for as long as you dared be gone! I thank you for that special gift of coming over one Saturday morning and saying if I was going to interview you on tape, we probably should get it done. Did you know that almost 3-months to the day – you would be gone?
Oh, this particular print is for you dad, you had such beautiful handwriting and took pride in good penmanship. The hours I spent in practice!! Now my computer does it all for me, and I can type so much faster than I ever wrote!
Until then. . .
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Love Where You're At
So we looked, we looked in Florence where we lived for so many years. I realized you really can't see the sky from there, and how I love my view! I have become really good friends with Pikes Peak, she shimmers in the morning sun, I know what time of year she is at her most beautiful from my vantage point. I know how she can glow bright pink during the winter sunsets! Right at this very moment, she is snow capped (a lot of snow too!) and the sun is shining brightly on her top, and shadows are crossing over her from some large clouds that are forming. There are dark clouds behind her that just accents her beautiful brilliant white top!
Then there are the foggy mornings, when the "river valley" is socked in with fog, there was a
morning this last week like that. Fog so thick and we could see the tops of the fog, and the sun was shining brightly here! What a beautiful sight! Or the fog laying over the Federal Prison - with the lights just poking out of the fog which gives the prison a look of floating. Not that a prison is a pretty sight anytime, but watching it float on a cloud is a unique sight!
And January 1 - midnight - watching the fireworks out my kitchen window or on my front porch. Sit up the spotting scope - what a treat! And if the currents are right, we can even hear the booms from the fireworks. I suppose the 4th of July would be good also - but we head to the mountains to beat the heat!
How about the days when the deer are feeding right out the door, or the coyote that walks by - not at all bothered by a human taking pictures of him.
My daughter comes out and marvels at the peace and quiet and the views. The grandkids come out and go 4-wheeling, all on our property. (I encourage them to take the path that will knock down the smaller cactus!) And I think to myself - this really is not so bad!
So there is much to be said for living where we do - and the choice to not leave this, is a good choice. For us.
I will always miss a larger city - I love the size of Pueblo, and would live there (I think??) but could I leave the peace, the quiet, the views and most of all, could I leave America's Mountain? I was raised in the San Luis Valley where we were surrounded by mountains, the Sangre's on the east or East Range as we called them. Like Pikes Peak, always different, always beautiful.
So no matter where I live, I have loved it for one thing or another, (well that might be stretching it when I remember the Philippine Islands!) but for the most part, every part of the world we have called home has been delightful in some way. Home truly is where the heart is.
Until then. . .